How do I know that these are the greatest words in the english language? Well in order to appreciate the light you must also know the darkness. For the first 15 years of my life my head was filled with these dark, negative preconceptions of myself. These are thoughts that some of you might have had before, or things you have heard from other people; “I can’t do that” “Thats to hard” ““You will never make the team.” “I Will always feel this way.” “They are different than me.”
These were all things that I would tell myself as I was growing up. One of my main reason to post this blog is to reach out to the world’s youth who might be feeling the same way sometimes. Sadly these things became my reality and pulled me down. When I look out into the world I see so many people who have fallen into the same routine pattern of negative thinking and lacking fulfillment in their lives. I appreciate you taking a moment to read my blog and I hope I can deliver as much value to your life as possible.
I was born in NJ and brought up in a middle class family and given every opportunity that I really wanted to pursue. One major element that lacked in my life was a education of health, fitness and a whole life balance. Not that it did not exist in the world, but I neglected to utilize the resources at hand
The negligence of my health cost me the first 15 years of my life. By the age of 15 I stood 5’7” and weighed in at just under 250 lb., putting me in the 90th percentile for weight for kids my age. I wore a size 38-40 waist at age 13. My stomach would hang over my belly so much it would dig into the top of my belt buckle and leave a mark. In many of my middle school classes I had the biggest boobs out of everyone, even the girls. To say the least I was quite a big boy.
Everywhere I went I was labeled the fat kid. I was teased, pinched, poked, ridiculed, and beat up. I was embarrassed for so many reasons. I couldn't wear normal clothes for kids my age, I always was eating more than friends, and constantly the butt of jokes. Luckily for me I was able to laugh a lot of these instances off, but the humor was just a light way to cover up my very heavy problem. I was embarrassed at the way I felt, and probably most embarrassed that I could not control my own habits and take control of my life. I constantly doubted myself and my abilities.
I tried every fad diet program like weight watchers, slim fast, and the Atkins diet. I popped weight loss pills behind my parents back, and I would make routine about lying about what I was eating. I could not see that these lies were doing more harm to myself, and the ones I loved than anything else. On the outside I appeared to be a jolly fat kid, but on the inside I hurt so much deep down. Sometimes I even thought about the horrible reality of just ‘ending it all.’ Thankfully I never took any action on that, and if you ever have feelings of hurting yourself it is crucial you reach out to someone. You might not understand how much people truly love and respect you if you always focus on the negative.
I lived with this everyday and night. Looking at myself in the mirror every night, wondering if I could ever change. The lack of control of my own habits spilt over from my eating habits into to my lifestyle habits. Lack on control caused me to compulsive and I was always getting in trouble, both in and out of school. I was suspended from school multiple times and even kicked out of my high school my last day of junior year.
By age 18 I was extremely over weight, had been kicked out of high school, arrested and been in all types of trouble with my parents. It is always the darkest before dawn and for me it was no different. I had to hear the words from my own mother that changed my life forever. She had told me one morning after I had been detained by police for drug possession; “It kills me to know that my son is going to get killed or go to jail before he can get the chance to go to college.”
It was at the moment when I heard those words come out of my mothers mouth that I made the DECISION to change. I decided that now was the time that change needed to happen because my life was at stake and the path I was walking did not lead any where that I would want to go. The power of the DECISION is one of the most significant powers you posses. Once you decide upon something, you cut off the other option and your path becomes clear. Once a decision is made then the right choices become obvious, you just have to act upon them correctly.
Years of hard work and dedication have molded me into the person I am today. I am someone who is committed to the helping others become the ‘best version of themselves’ in any way possible. A mentor of mine once said, “Once you accept responsibility for everything in your life, then you have ability to change thing you want in your life.” Since accepting this truth I was able to move on to become a Professional Sales Leader in a quarter billion dollar marketing company, run a marathon, and design, create and live the lifestyle I desire. When we stop making excuses for our actions and live with INTEGRITY we are able to speak our lives into existence and create whatever we want out of life.
How many people in your life have to tell you that you need to change before you start to finally listen? What will is it going to take for you to finally change? What is your rock bottom before you change? What is it worth to you to change your lifestyle? How far are you willing to push yourself to get what you want? What are you willing to sacrifice to get it?...These are all question I encourage you to think about and I will visit upon them in later posts.
Do you live your life with doubt that you are worthy of everything you set out in life to achieve? Does lack of control of your habits cause you to fall short of what you truly want out of any area of your life? Perhaps that is the reason that you decided to check out this page today. While I cant tell you why you opened up this blog today. I can give you some insight about what it can provide for you.
My purpose with this ongoing blog is to share ideas with other to inspire them to take action and create the life of their dreams. I will provide the tools you need to build your dreams into a reality. Please follow me and help me show you how to create the life you desire.
These are the same ideas and concepts I used to transform my own life and I hope that they can do the same for you. It took 100’s of experiences, conversations and events, and so on for me to acquire these skills for lasting success in your own life. I have taken all the best from all of it and compiled it into a simple, quick guide for you to use to change your own life. So I invite you to take a journey with me. A journey down the road less travelled, but none the less a road that holds all your goals and desires. When was the last time you were able to say with complete conviction; “I DID IT!”..?